It’s like I know what to do but I just can’t do it. It reminds me of Kylo Ren in Star Wars.
This is something that I’m still struggling with, but I’m getting better with daily. I’ve fucked myself into so many bad situations that I never needed to get in, just because of this self-destructive behaviour.
I absolutely loathe cliche posts, but damn, this advice is very cliche and will annoy you if you’re in my Kylo Ren boat. But hear me out.
It’s very simple. Like Shia LeBeouf said–
If you haven’t exited this post after reading that, I applaud you. Thank you.
I KNOW it’s easier said than done. I KNOW that anxiety and depression leaves you barely moving. I KNOW that it’s a struggle to do anything. I KNOW you can’t even think straight. I know, I’ve been there, and I’m still kind of there.
But, once I stopped using my mental illness as a reason not to succeed, and a reason why it was “okay” that I self-sabotaged, I actually started to do things. Productive things. Doing the opposite of self-sabotage (whatever that word is lol).
As someone who has always been a go! go! go! get everything done right away and 100% correct kind of person, I had to learn how to SLOW DOWN. It’s okay to take your time and plan things out before you do them, even if it’s a phone call. I write out what I’m going to say so I don’t stutter. It’s about helping yourself instead of letting your anxiety and depression ruin your life. Fixate on the solutions, not the problem. As long as you’re doing the things that need to be done, it’s okay to take your time and go slow.
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